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thrill right at your fingertips

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thrill right at your fingertips

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lately I’ve thought about how time flies, how people grow...

Mon, 03 Jun 2013 19:49:08 -0400

lately I’ve thought about how time flies, how people grow up into all sorts of roles & take different life paths that as a kid, you could not have determined. this picture really sums that up.

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much of the time my mind effortlessly wanders through ideas, imaginings, and useless wonders....

Wed, 29 May 2013 22:42:27 -0400

much of the time my mind effortlessly wanders through ideas, imaginings, and useless wonders. Sometimes this over thinking can really become stressful; i’m learning to calm it down. But then i have these beautiful moments of clarity that emerge from thin air and it’s the most relaxing few seconds. I know my life may not be where I had imagined it at the age of twenty-four… but i’ve learned a lot and gained many different experiences that have filled my living soul, and I am grateful & happy where I am right this instant.

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Tue, 21 May 2013 23:37:06 -0400

"George: Annie’s a very passionate person. And passionate people tend to overreact at times...."

Tue, 21 May 2013 23:34:06 -0400

“George: Annie’s a very passionate person. And passionate people tend to overreact at times. But on the upside, with this passion… comes great spirit and individuality… which is probably one of the reasons you love Annie.
Bryan: That’s what I love most about her.”

- Father of the Bride, wise words from Steve Martin

This quote really hit me. It describes a fault that can be observed as the best character trait. I believe this explains my overreactions quite well.

hvted: ♡

Tue, 21 May 2013 23:18:17 -0400

hvted:

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"When I was little, my mom would take me to the beach while we had summer vacation (she was a..."

Tue, 21 May 2013 23:13:35 -0400

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When I was little, my mom would take me to the beach while we had summer vacation (she was a teacher, and we lived on Long Island). I remember her telling me to run into the ocean so the salt water would heal the bug bites that I had scratched open, and I didn’t want to, because it would make them burn and sting. It’s something that’s become metaphoric now that I’m older. A few days ago, I called my mom, and as she was telling me about the part of our house that’s being rebuilt after Sandy destroyed it, for some reason, I just remembered that a little salt in your wounds heals them.

A little (metaphorical) push is usually what has made me move when I didn’t otherwise feel compelled to. Regardless of what great things it yielded, it was still a push, and I hated it at the time. The thing about people is that we don’t change unless not changing becomes the less comfortable option. It’s unfortunate, but we’re creatures of habit and we’ll hold onto our convictions until we’re literally forced to stop. In retrospect, I would not change much of anything about my experiences over the past few years. I just wish I knew that the salt in my wounds was healing them. I just couldn’t see how pain could be growth, healing and reckoning.

Something that I tell myself often when I’m all knotted up inside is that what I’m feeling I will eventually regard as the pain that comes with my soul stretching to be more and understand more and love more… growing pains. Don’t run away from the things that will fix you and heal you. They’re often unlikely, unexpected and uncomfortable. That doesn’t make them bad. It just makes them new. And if you’ve been around the block enough, you’ll know that they always lead to the bigger, better and more beautiful.

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- Brianna West, Thought Catalog

That last paragraph really says it. When moments, struggles, or even relationships give ya a hard time, it ain’t a bad thing. It’s growing pains, it’s you learning. And it’s these things that make you a better person, that bring on more beautiful things. :)

i am a deep thinker. It is a gift and it is a burden. I think I’m just beginning to learn how...

Mon, 20 May 2013 15:52:09 -0400

i am a deep thinker. It is a gift and it is a burden. I think I’m just beginning to learn how to deal.

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tylerknott: Typewriter Series #419 by Tyler Knott Gregson

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tylerknott:

Typewriter Series #419 by Tyler Knott Gregson

Are We Allowed To Be Human? - Kovie Biakolo, Thought Catalog

Mon, 20 May 2013 12:40:08 -0400

Last week I had a rough week. It was a combination of having a lot to get done, worrying about getting all of it done, worrying about the future, barely sleeping at all, feeling lonesome, and probably not running enough. (There is a high correlation between my mood and my running, or lack thereof.) Whenever I have a bad day, I usually shrug it off and try not to make it two bad days or more. But alas, ever so often, it happens. And it is during these days or weeks that are difficult, that I realize how much of a performance living can be.

There is an expectation that we have of others, with regard to how they are and how they should be. To those who are familiar with me, I am often happy and laughing and friendly, albeit while also being deep-thinking and sometimes lost in my thoughts. But sometimes I’m angry, I am frustrated; I am filled with venomous passions. And I have had to learn to temper those passions, to seclude myself, in order to not speak or act out of anger because I don’t want to. But I also don’t want to put on a performance of being happy and laughing and friendly when deep inside, in the moment, I am not.

And if you stray away from this expectation of whom you are who you should be, people around you become uncomfortable. There is an inability to deal with the inconsistency of you being something other than what they are used to you being. You might even get the comment, “You’re not your usual self.” And maybe it’s within someone’s right to perceive you as not being consistent with whom you’ve presented yourself as being. But maybe more than that, it’s within your right to be something other than your expectations, even if it’s only for a moment. What is a usual self? Because when I’m angry and irritated, I feel like myself, it’s a part of who I am; it’s just a part that more often than not, I like to keep to myself.

I think that many parts of life are a performance. The well-known Shakespeare line in As You Like It, “All the world’s a stage. And all the men and women merely players,” is something that doesn’t ring truer than when you try to deviate from the role that you’ve presented to others. But I can’t help but feel that these roles and parts that we assign ourselves keep us from being human and seeing others as human: Humans who are intertwined between their blessings and challenges, and their fortunes and trials. Humans who are happy but sad, exhilarated but exhausted, and grateful but just might want to scream and yell and be angry because in the moment, they are.

Being human means being complex, it means being consumed by a million and one thoughts at any given moment. It means trying to survive and thrive and create a self that you’re happy with. But that self is complicated, that self isn’t perfect and it never will be. And rather than expecting people to always live up to who we think they are, maybe we can accept that people are allowed to be complicated and to be inconsistent and to live, rather than to always perform. Maybe just maybe, we can allow each other to simply be human.

I enjoyed this. I am sometimes at fault for not quite letting others fully “be” with their “humanly” selves, as I at times need to be accepted with my own complex emotions.